I am crawling out of the black hole that has been my misery for the past 14 weeks…most call it the first trimester. Besides pulling myself together for my classes (which thankfully granola and adrenaline got me through) I have felt pretty awful. Doing as little as you could imagine in the midst of a 21 month old my husband politely tolerated my sickness making runs for french fries and soup when needed. I don’t remember it being this bad with my first pregnancy. With very little sadness I hope I never have to endure this again.
Everyone experiences pregnancy differently. For me it has been like having a hangover for 3 months, complete with the pounding headaches and need for greasy food…which has done nothing for my waist line! As I move towards the light of the second trimester I am officially out to the public which feels good. It doesn’t seem fair that you have to conceal this secret during the time when you need the most sympathy.
I have to say that I feel a little guilty about this pregnancy. Other than “feeling” it I have not focused on it as much as the first one. This is obviously because I am chasing around my nearly 2 year old which distracts from anything outside of keeping her safe, encouraging good behavior, and sneaking in hugs and kisses when I can. Today I had an ultra sound and it allowed me really grasp onto the miracle this is. Seeing her (my guess for now) made it so much more real. She moved around so much, opening her mouth and slurping up the amniotic fluid and sucking on her hands. It makes me realize how incredible this is. There is a person growing inside of me who I can’t wait to meet.
Next is to grasp onto the reality of what it will be like adding another little one to this family. I can’t even begin to prepare myself for that. About the only thing I can think about now are names. We will likely not find out the sex so we need names for both. We are looking for names that are unique but not to trendy. Any suggestions…here of any names you like but didn’t get to use? Please comment and give me some suggestions!
So I am back. Feeling almost like myself again, minus the expanding belly. Headed for the last piece of cheery pie, the baby likes it ;-)
Peace,
Cassie
About Me
- Cass
- Northern Burbs of Chicago, Il, United States
- Among many other things I am new mom of a very dynamic 18 month old, a wife of a hardworking husband, a stepmother of two teens and yoga teacher in the northern burbs of Chicago. Ananda means bliss...and it is that, the surges of bliss that overcome me, that I life off. Here I will share anything that seems worth sharing, profound or not, deep and superficial.
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